I lie down and everything’s soft. So much softer than how I feel. I want to stay here forever. I want to disappear inside these sheets. And pretend I will sleep tonight. There’s so much you don’t know. You never knew. So much left to say, but it’ll never get said. I can’t get my mind around how fast you entered and left this place. Though it’ll never be the same.
As I’m looking for my house, I know that white cream is bursting through the walls, flooding the red carpet. My friends tell me that everything will be all right. But I can’t find it anywhere, no matter how long I keep walking. So get the fuck out, right now, and let me move on and forget about this face I wore. You’re allowed to hate me for the rest of my life, but I don’t have that privilege.
I want everything to be different. Happy endings all around. Smiles wherever I go. The sun shining. I want you here. Now. Everything’s taking way too long. You’re taking way too long. I need you to bring pillows and blankets.
